Something, what I ever wanted to told you.

The last days were confusing. I know what I've done and thats the point. I trusted the wrong people for years and believed in their lies about friendship and stuff. All the years with my best body.... trown in the trash...
That's my life, my choises, my feelings. I decide who's and who isn't in my life.
I regret so much what I've said and no one can comprehend this. Okey, thats my past. And I have to conclude with it. 
But there are so many memories of good & bad times, things we've done or things we've cried about.
I hope you'll understand now but yeah... It's not that easy to forget so much.
I have so many things with which I have to deal with. If I don't want to tell you something, then keep calm. I'm not sick oder anything like that. I just want to think about things. Even if that's not good.
The last thing. When you see me and I'm staring into the air, just look at me. I'll see this and act what I want.
The pretty good actor. Forever.