Please read this..

This blog is my diary; I put everything in it what crossed my mind.
And today I was thinking about different this. About my mark in maths, my friends. And about this special person. I wish it stopped. All the feelings... I'd rather be numb than this.. This is not this what I wanted it would be. 
I just want to save her, I just want to be here... I just want to give her that what she gave me...
I don't want this feelings anymore. I want it to stop. Please...